Happiness is a choice!

I needed a place to vent and here is were I'm going to say a little of what i am feeling..

Sometimes I get so sick of the pain I have to go through in life.. and sometimes it feels like its the only thing you ever get to feel.. but that's just it. Happiness is a CHOICE, but sometimes its the hardest choice to make! You want to get back up, but that is also a hard choice to make as well.. it is hard getting up on your own, but that is the great thing, you are never alone. You always have your savior. Its hard sometimes to have faith that he is there, because you cant see him physically but he is ALWAYS there. He has his loving hand out for you to grab.. all you have to DECIDE is to take it. And i think that is the first step to true happiness.

Pain is an extraordinary thing. When you go through it it is excruciating, but when the trial is over, it makes us that much stronger. It is sooo HARD to get through pain.. some of the hardest things in life are because of pain. I think that one day we will understand pain fully , and for right now that is enough for me to know, i will KNOW why it is i had each and every trail of pain in my life, and it all had its purpose. That is the true comfort to me in the reasoning with pain.

When it comes to pain and your heart...Your heart can feel like it has been ripped out and stabbed, shredded, and stomped on, then you carefully try to scotch tape it back together, knowing it will never be the same.. only hoping someone will come along to super glue it back together, knowing he/she will have to take you; some broken pieces missing, but none the less wholeheartedly, willing and loving, able to take you into their arms and hold you together as long as it may take. Willing to wait and love you, while you heal. Pain eventually ebbs, and you can dismiss it, and eventually let go. Each step, each dawn brightens a little more each day, as we slowly release the pain and move on. Not ever fully forgetting. For pain is never fully gone, imprinted on our hearts, by a scalpel, left with scares, but the one thing we all have to realize is happiness IS a CHOICE!