My Heart has Stopped

This pain trickels like blood from this heart down to my finger tips dripping to the ground. My tears whispering how? The pain unbearable causing my body to ache as my stomach turns to ice. My trust broken, shattering to the earth. Doubt etching its way into all my thoughts and memories. Forgiving is something my heart yearns for, but forgetting is what it aches for.

This perfect image that i had come so accustomed to is threatening to ripe my life apart and knock it off its henges. Desperation, longing, and dispair taking its place. Distance tearring my heart to pieces. The beautiful thing my heart once wasnow shrivels and whithers in your delicate hands. Tears begin to fall as both of us reach across the heavens to get safely home. Arms outstretched remembering what once was, leaving a gapeing hole where I used to be. My haven it used to be but so far the distance ... I become alonse and cold. No longer safe with the warmth of your tender embrace. I sit alone now tears streaming down my face abandoned by myself, left with only memories to tourment me. Desperate deep longing to see your face and feel your embrace once again. My heart aches to be close to you again. Weak and tired of being strong i have nothing to lean on with you gone falling with no end in sight. The sun shines warm in my world with you around, lifting me to heights never reached before. Seeing that last beam of hope i run towards it. Praying and hopeing for relief. But i continue with your wonderful face ... so vivid in my mind, my last hope.

A poem To me From Todd

The measure of love taken as if by tempature , our limbs entwine and embrace, love eminates from all around and we sink into the most sacred of all the lord's blessings, that being love shared between two hearts called yours and mine.I say the words that bring you to tears as a glimmer falls soft and silent to the earth. Stars above speachless as the night air surrounds us in a blanket of warm air from the last breath of summer. Tonight it is two hearts called yours and mine, love bonding them together to make one. You and me making us. I take you in my arms and hold you secure protecting you from the world so dark and ruthless. I lift your face to mine and our lips meet sending oeverwhleming feelings of everything pure and sparking and lighting the night sky. I want to be with you forever. I want to make the moment of our most pure and truest love making it stretch forever. You and I, me and you, One and one. Us forever and ever in this moment of true love.